Find Yourself!

Oh, my, it's 2025 already! 😲

Like most people (with too much free time on their hands? 😅), when 2025 began, I concocted a list of resolutions. Some are simple, habitual aspects of my daily routine. Others, however, probably require the extra effort, as they may or may not be things a bit harder to reach; one that needs a leap of faith, a jump of a few centimeters higher, a grasp beyond the natural capabilities of my feeble grasp. ✋✊🙌

I am not quite sure which category this fits into, though:

"To listen more to my inner voice."

That does sound like a day-to-day target. Right? But at the same time, it may not be as easy as it seems. As many people often decry, "Easier said than done." 😒

That said, among that "inner voice" was one desire.

"You should go back to writing!"

Actually, I used to write A LOT, reviews or whatnot. It was a medium that helped keep my mind active, talking about whatever my mind was thinking instead of sinking, drowning in a pool of overthinking (usually toward darkness and negativity). Writing directed me to stay focused and, in a way, roamed freely through a positive light. 😌

But then, as most can surely relate, life happened. Suddenly, I no longer had the flexible window nor the literal energy to write. And the irony is my ongoing work practically revolves around writing! 😩😵

Eventually, I did return to writing. In a completely different form: Through letters! Via a pen pal app! I am ridiculously fortunate, I suppose, having met correspondences who are (mostly) okay with long lines of a few hundred words (if not more, so much more). 😅🙏

Still, to kick off this year, I decided to step it up a bit higher by following that inner voice. And if you are reading this, then yes! This blog is such a desire put into action. At the moment, I cannot be sure how frequently I will write (perhaps the better word is post? Publish? Shamelessly overshare? 😬) in this empty space. How about weekly, then? Hmmm... or every tenth date on the calendar? But what will happen in February, where the month ends without a proper tenth? Hahaha, I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get there. 

Of course, by taking this treacherous step, there is another goal at hand. Through writing, I also aim to rediscover myself. Maybe making my feelings known will somehow guide me to understand more about myself, including recognizing and embracing its darkest shadows. There is no telling if I can keep this running or not. Will I stay steady or gradually grow? But, no doubt, the spirit is notably high for now. Better strike when the iron is hot, right? 😉

"Write! Find Yourself," my inner voice has just shouted. A bit too loud, I'm not gonna lie. He is THAT annoying sometimes. But, yes, I will do that! Or, at the very least, I will try my best. 💪😤